and wondering do I really know
what I want it to be
its like I’m lost out at sea
I started walking slowly
enjoying the waves
and now as I plunge deeper
the sway of the waves try
and carry me away
but I just wanted to stay
stay in the shallows
but the deep blue sea is steadily calling me
beckoning me on.
Singing a gentle melody
Calling my name
And I feel the wave of shame
Crashing behind me
As I delve deeper within.
Casting away my perversions
Leveling off my previous sins
And allowing a new day to begin.
But then the seas begin to envelope me,
And gradually like the sand bar builds
I gradually begin to rise and develop
As though it was trying to assist me
With everything that I have gained and professed to be.
Learning things that I never could have thought to believe
enjoying life as I never hoped it to be,
excited to see the sun rise and set
because he’s taught me
He’s taught me that new days arrive
and nights fall
but in that starry bliss
God’s kisses lie.
Above us in the sky
and with his love
he dwells deep in us
and sows his seed
and helps us grow to lead
finally being capable of loving all indeed.
By just taking his heed
and in time a bountiful harvest we shall reap.
And as long as we try
even if we set down and sigh
he’ll still be on high telling us why.
Why we feel lost.
Why not to stop.
Why we just need to just keep going
and never forget from where we came.
Because evil stems from which we came
and changes with every passing of the moon.
And just like the moon causes the waves in the sea
god causes the good that you see in me
I feel from him.
Life will always cause some people to sway
yet as the sycamore grow
so will your discipline
to remain in place
and let no wind waiver your stance.
And procure a strong staunch stance.
Providing shelter to those in need
and for the visionary limbs upon which to climb
and bearing fruits to provide nourishment
and allowing all to utilize you to your fullest
and you finally finding your innate purpose
to provide for those whom still have lessons to attain.
Because you’ve previously reaped
from other fields now its your time to share
your harvest and continue the cycle to achieve.
©2007 by Azalea Tidwell
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AZ-U-R, (CFO/Sponsorship Contact) hails from Gary, Indiana and now resides in Cleveland, Ohio by way of Michigan and South Carolina. While she is an active member of her community with various organizations, it was in 2001 during her attendance at Case Western University that the Spoken Word artist within her was discovered, and at The Boarding House in Cleveland’s University Circle. “As You Are” became a prominent voice within the poetic community. Her approach to her art and to others is acceptance regardless of status or limitation: a total embodiment of her name.
After leaving Ohio for a time to pursue other interests, AZ-U-R returned to Cleveland in 2006 and began to share her art on various open mics with a passion that is both entertaining and educational, which has earned her invitations to host several Spoken Word events as well. Since her return, AZ-U-R has released a book, My Poetic Exhibition , and in the spring of 2009 will be touring as a cast member of Judgement Day (Valley of the Lost Souls).